Day 36

Faris: Shenu gilteeli isma?
Sara: 3ziz
Faris: El?
Sara: Tell him Modhi

I didnt want to, something inside me told me not to tell him.

Me: Faris please change the subject, mala da3e you know who he is.

He kept quiet, and said nothing at all till wisalta a7mad's house.

F: Sara rou7ay wara 5al a7medo yg3ad yami

Sara came and joined me in the back as a7mad was getting in the car

Ahmad: Halla, Modhi shlonech?

I smiled

Me: Good you?
A: 7imdilla zain

Damn a7mad's H.O.T, He is the perfect looking guy and surprisingly doesn't talk to random girls or wants to meet any. A7isa rayal, I can honestly say wlla shey fee ghala6 mashalla.

A: Shonick Faroos? Ou Sara?
S: Good
Me: This is fun
S: I bet it is, A7mad's here!

He laughed.

Me: I dont get it

I do get it, i turned around and gave sara "the look".

A few minutes later sara was so into her phone

"Saro shfeech?" I whispered

Took her a few seconds to realise i was talking to her as she was too concentrated.

"Haa? La walla shey" Sara replied with the fakes smile she can give, i knew something was going on.

" Saro 3a6eeni your phone." I told her

She gave me her phone

I took it and there was her fake account opened

"Shfeeeh?" I confusingly asked

" Modhi, you wont be happy.." she snapped

" Tell me, you talked to him mu?" I stuttered

I read the dms between them, took me quite long to read as they've been dming for so long.

"Mita you started dming?" I questioned

" Wana im packing, makint bagoulich then" She answered

He was flirting too much and after a while he asked for her pin because apparently when she dm's him it doesnt "notify" him.

"Now what? Asakir the account?" –Sara

"La2! You're adding him on bbm." – Me

"Mu min9ijich." –Sara

A: Shfeekum? Sh9ayer?
Me: Salamtick!
A: Alla yslmich, Modhi kilmala wtkbreen akthar!
F: Eeeh i told her that gabil shway

Mu wakthum.

Day 35

S: Liar!
Me: Walla!
S: Im calling faroos, pack yo bag guuuurl.

I smiled and started packing.

I know for a fact that this is going to be fun.

20 minutes later after i was done packing sara told me that faris was out side so we headed to the car.

F: Yalla dishow khalsooni
Me: Minziman 3anick faroos!

I haven't seen him for so long, him and ahmad are good friends. Its funny how small kuwait is, elkil3arif elthani.

Faroos turned around and looked at me

F: Walla mi7lawa Modhio
Me: Mashkour
F: Walla kabrana!
S: Faroos bdal la tagrig ta3al help me the trunk mayitba6al

I quickly bbmed sara

*bbm chat*

Me: Do i sense jealousy here?

Ping!!!

Ping!!!

Ping!!!

**

S: Aku a7ad 7anan on bbm!

She was checking her phone

*Bbm chat*

S: No, you're my bestfriend.

I smiled.

We got in the car and went to sara's house to get her things

F: Lat6awloon ma7ib an6ir
Me: Enshalla 3ame
S: La Modh stay here mara7 a6awel
Me: Enzain

As soon as she left faris turned around and looked at me

Me: Shtabe?
F: You bbmed her didnt you?
Me: Eee laish?
F: Shgiltay? Does she like me?

I smiled

F: Shfeech you smile chthy?

I smiled again. wider.

F: Ma minich fayda, enzain sh9ar 3laich entay ou A7mad?
Me: Shkhbari.. nothing
F: Nothing haaaaa?

with a smirk on his face.

Me: Nothing walla laish?
F: He really likes you btw

Me: Ok shsawe?

F: 3a6ee wayh, he's a good guy

Me: He's like a brother to me

F: ouch

Me: Ba3ad hatha el9ij shinsawe..

There goes a lie...

He said nothing until sara came back.

Sara was walking back to the car.

F: Yibtay kilshey?
S: Eeeh yalla
F: Shrykum endig 3la a7medo? Ymkin he's free iye wiyana?
Me: Aahhh....
S: EEEH! GREAT IDEA, ymkin tinsain l7mar..

I looked at sara, shocked at how she just said that infront of faris.

F: Ay 7mar?
Me: Ma7ad.
F: Kint adre, goulay
S: You can trust him
F: wait awal i'll call a7medo

as he was talking to him on the phone i slapped sara.

He hung up.

S: Haa?
F: He's coming, bamura. Yalla tell me

I started telling him everything, in detail.

Day 34

S: Modhi mu min9ijich! Why aren't you doing anything about it?
Me: Walla mali khilg mashakel, are you busy?
S: La2 laish?
Me: Tyeen my house?
S: Eeeh sure.

An hour later she came over.

S: I was thinking about it ou i have an idea modhi.
Me: 7ag shnu?
S: Bit3rfeen lu all the lovey dovey shit he tells you is true or not?
Me: Eeeh..?
S: Khansawe fake account!
Me: LA2 6AB3AN!
S: Why not?
Me: Bess...
S: Etkhfeen ena y6la3 9ij player mu?
Me: Maybe...
S: 3yal dam chthy mobkaifich, im making one.

She opened my laptop, made a new email then twitter account. She followed a few people and made it look so realistic that no one would guess it's fake.

S: Lets wait a few days i'll tweet shway ou lman i get more followers i'll follow him kay?
Me: Ok.

she stayed a few hours then her mom called her.

S: Wait omi gam etdig.

She picked the phone and talked to her, after she was done she hung up.

Me: Ha sh9ar?
S: Birou7on shlai ou she asked me lu tabe faroos ymurne ywdeeni
Me: Bitrou7een?
S: Lu entay etyeen arou7!
Me: I wish!
S: Ok try ask omich, bess latgouleen ena faroos bimurna!

There was too little chance, i knew for a fact mom wouldn't let me go.

Me: Enzain shlon anam?
S: Its 6pm modh shryich?
Me: Ok wait i'll go ask

I went to my mom's room.

Me: Mama!
Mom: Na3am..
Me: A7ibich.
Mom: Ana a7ibich, amray shnu tabeen?
Me: Mama ana minziman mu 6al3a..
Mom: Wlma6loub?
Me: Ok mut39been, adre mat5leeni arou7 because you care about me ou et5feen 3lai bess Saro bitrou7 ma3a her family elshlai w binamoun! Bacher b7droon, can i go?

She smiled.

Me: 3ade?
Mom: Ana mita 5laitich 3ashan al7een a5leech?
Me: Adre you never did, bess my birthday ba3ad 5days mutinsain!

She smiled again

Mom: si2lay oboch ana mali sh'3l
Me: Ok witha s2alne etha entay rthya wla la2 shgoula?
Mom: Gouleela omi rathya.

I looked at her thinking it was a joke.

Me: Mama ana gam a7lim?
Mom: Et7siseeni mu6al3a killish! Yalla go ask oboch

I went to my dad bl9ala

Me: Baba Saro bitrou7 shalai with her family al7een ou bacher b7adroon can i go with her?
Dad: La2.
Me: Bess omi rathya..

He turned around and looked at me.

Dad: Ok rou7ay.

I hugged my dad then ran to my room!

Me: RITHOWWW!!

Day 33

I couldn't control it.

I knew something's going on and it was surely no joke.

*Ring ring*

I looked at my phone, it's 3ziz.

I quickly answered.

Me: Aloo? 3zizz?
A: APRIL FOOOOOLSSS!

I checked my phone, it's 12am april 1st.

I said nothing.

A: Modhi?
Me: 3ziz banam goodnight.
A: Asiiffffff!!! Its a jokeee...
Me: Bnam bye.
A: A7ibich
Me: ok
A: Sorry.
Me: WAGAFT GALBE 3ZIZ!
A: Shfee 9otich? Were you crying?

OF COURSE I WAS CRYING 3ZIZ, I thought to myself.

Me: La2, I think maretha.
A: YOU WERE CRYING!
Me: La2.
A: YOU CARE ABOUT ME!!!
Me: Bye bnam
A: Goodnighttttt 7BEEBTI
Me: Goodnight

I smiled, then hung up.

He nearly gave me a heart attack, but I still love him so it's ok.

I slept.

Days passed. My friends have been doing great, In the other hand 3ziz and I not very well. One day I'm crazy in love him, and the other hate. Pure hate.

Whenever he talks to me, I'm perfectly happy and deeply inlove but then, when he's not I'm the complete opposite, specially when I stalk his twitter or ask.fm.

He constantly followed new girls and was followed by them. He kept on telling me they're girls he didn't know and he only followed them because he "liked" their tweets. I mean if it was a girl or two I'd actually believe him, but it wasn't. 

I didn't know whether to believe him or not. It was driving me insane.

It's wednesday today and tommorow was a half day, me and my friends were thinking of ditching school ou ni6la3.

I called Sara, I had to tell her what was going on between me and 3ziz.

*Ring*

Me: Aloo
S: Halla
Me: Busy?
S: La goulay..
Me: Ok bess awal shey btru7een school bacher?
S: Mali khilg you?
Me: La, call your cousin Faris, shoufay lu he's free, khal y5ithna wnru7 shalai or something
S: Ou omich?

Her cousin is like a brother to me and is at Sara's house 24/7, he also knows my mother but even then my mom is still not ok with me hanging around him.

My mother is over protective, she never lets me go out specially mu mukan b3eed(..chalet). My parents are the complete opposite of being free, and by free I mean allowing me to talk to boys and going out and about.

Me: I'll tell her r7na your house or something, she wont call
S: Ok great, I'll call Faroos wagoulck! Enzain yalla goulay sh9yer?
Me: Ok so listen..

I explained everything to her..

Day 32

* Knock knock*

Me: Mnuuu?

*Knock knock*

Me: MENNNUUUUUUU?!?!

*Knock knock*

Me: REEMO ADRE ENTAY! TA3ALAY

She. Is. Too. Annoying.

I heard her giggling behind the door as she was entering.

Me: Shtabeen ylmuz3ija?
R: Broo7 Nestle tyeen?
Me: Shayfa s3a cham?
R: Ouf yalla bye..

As soon as reem left I bbmed 3ziz.

Me: Ana bnam al7een tabe shey?

A minute later he read it, he called 3ala 6oul

I picked the phone.

Me: Aloo?
A: Halla Modhi, bitnameen?
Me: Eee, waineck?
A: Blsayara
Me: bitrid elbait?
A: La..
Me: Ha 3ayal?
A: Hospital.

I instantly got up.

Me: Hospital? Laish shsayer?
A: La wlla shey bess shway my heart y3wrny.

3ziz has heart problems, and had has problems since childhood. His heart starts beating so fast, it gets to a point where he has difficulties breathing. This mostly happens when he drinks enegry drinks or has anything containing some caffeine.

Me: Sharib shey 3ziz?

What if I didn't ask? He would've never told me.

A: Haa?
Me: 3ZIZ SIMA3TNE...

No reply.

Me: 3ziz lata7gerne!

Silence.

Me: 3zizz..(?)

I suddenly hear a guy shouting..

"3ZOOZ! 3ZOOZ SHFEECK?"

Then the phone closed.

I called him.

*Ring*

.

.

.

*Ring*

No reply.

I sat on my bed,  I was intimidated.

Maybe his phone 6ifa? Or his phone 6a7?  Is this a joke? Yea, he's joking.

I was trying to stay positive, holding my tears in.

I can do this. He's fine. Dont cry! Modhi dont.

Day 31

We both looked at my phone.

I forgot to close it.

I picked the phone and said

"Aloo"

Sara quickly grabbed my phone and closed it!

Me: Why'd you do that?
Sara: Madre I panicked, sorry..
Me: Okay now what?

She looked at me, clueless.

I was sat on my bed, sara joined me and started hugging me, I hugged her back.

*ring*

Me: Sara hes calling!
Sara: Latsheelena!
Me: Haw laish?
Sara: A7san khal yt2adab
Me: La barid, wait b3dain agoulich laish

I answered his call, and said nothing.

A: Aloo
Me: Hmm?
A: Shfeech Modhi?
Me: All that witgouli shfeech?
A: You're making a big deal out of nothing, you can't blame me for what i did! Ou ana lu adre ena it would upset you chthy i wouldn't have done it, asef.

I got up as he was speaking, 6ila3t bara my room.

Me: Madre shgoulick 3ziz
A: Give me a second chance?
Me: What if you dissapoint me again?
A: I won't! I love you! Please?

I smiled as soon as he told me he loved me. I just cant listen to these words coming out of his mouth without smiling, its really not something i can control.

Me: You promise?

Just to double check.

A: I promise.

A: Are you smiling?
Me: Shdarack?
A: A3arfich!

I giggled.

A: Enzain yalla 7yati ana bldiwaniya, elshabab yn6rouni lazem arou7 tabeen shey?
Me: Salamtick.
A: Yslmich, ou ykhaleechle
Me: Amen, bye baby
A: Bye 7yati

He hung up.

I walked back to my room

Sara: What the hell was that?
Me: Shnu sarona?
Sara: YOU FORGAVE HIM?

I smiled.

Sara: MODHI YOU NEVER LEARN! Kaifich, ana giltlich.
Me: A7ibichhhhh, be happy for me! Y3ny I'm happy btz3leeni?
Sara: La2 bess its wrong! Kaifich 5ala9, elmuhem you're happy.

I hugged her!

Me: I love him, shssawee?
Sara: Mu m3nata you forgive him this fast!
Me: He told me he won't do it again, he promised!
Sara: I hope he keeps it.

It was 10pm already.

*Ring*

Sara: Yalla my driver hnee, I gtg baby
Me: A7ibiiccchhh!
Sara: mar7 etw9leeni?

I smirked, innocently as she was getting her stuff



Sara: Yalla bye, maminich fayda! come to school bacher fahma?
Me: Fahma!

Day 30

Questions on ask..

Q: Single?
A: Yes

Q: :*
A: ;*

Q: All girls in my school talk about you! Why?
A: Madry walla

Me: Ok sara 3ade, nothing shocking, go down..
S: Kill hatha?
Me: Adre people talk about him.

She looked at me, and said nothing what so ever.

She scrolls down...

Q: If someone told you, you have to get married now. You have two choices, marry a girl you know or let your mom pick for you?
A: Mom pick for me.

S: Hatha 7mar
Me: yumkn gal chthy 3ashan people mayshikoun?
S: Stop making excuses for him.

She kept on scrolling down

Q: do you love someone? Or have feelings for someone? The truth please.
A: Nope

Me: Still doesn't mean anything...

Q: I've been in love with you since last year, I’m afraid to tell you because I don’t know what your reaction will be..


A: Tell me who you are for starters, I won't post.

Staring at his answer, my eyes quickly started to tear up.

Me: Now what Sara? Shswe?

She said nothing.

Me: When I finally loosen up a bit this happens again? Laish chthy 7athe, laish?

She hugged me.

After 30 minutes of non stop crying I finally started to calm a bit down.

S: Modhi talk to him, call him al7een!
Me: Shgoula?
S: Tabeeni akalma?
Me: La ana aklma
S: Call..

I unlocked my phone, and called him

Sara: 76e speaker

I put it on speaker.

Me: Alloo
A: Hala 7yati
Me: Hii, 3ziz are you busy?
A: La goulay, what's up?
Me: Shift your ask

Shikat for a while, me and sara looked at each other.

A: And?
Me: 3ziz answer my question, am I not enough for you? Do you need more girls to satisfy your needs?


Silence again.

A: Modhi, Awalan sh7ga dasha my ask ou thaniyan I'm a guy ou you rejected me, shraych y3ny?
Me: That's all you have to say? Shame on you 3ziz.
A: I have to move on sometime, entay matabeeni
Me:  YOU KNOW EXACTLY HOW I FEEL ABOUT YOU! Embayin shkither et7bne
A: Modhi, calm down. Mala da3e ely g3da etsaweena
Me: I have to go

I closed the phone.

Me: Why are all guys assholes, laish sara? When find the right guy ou fall for him, this happens.

I started crying again

" Modhi? "

Me and Sara both looked at the same time.

Day 29

I explained everything to her.

S: Ola, intay shnu?
Me: Shnu? Chub maswait shey ana! 


She beamed.


Me: I mean it's not my problem, I'm hot...
S: Hahaaaaaay!
Me: Joking, OK yalla lt6wlena! Tell me how do you know about Wahab's salfa?
S: Y3ny Modhi, I'm not dumb inzain? Kint adre ena you were in love with him, ashkara embayin ena you talked to someone. A3arfich 3adel ana. B3dain I used your phone mara walla ashouf isma on bbm, don't kill me but I went on your twitter you were following him walla ag3ad I stalk him.

6oul el wakt she knew.

Me: Why didn't you tell me?
S: Wanted you to tell me.

I was speechless.

S: Okay enough shock, call 3ziz..
Me: Enzain okay

I called him..

*Ring ring*
.
.
.

*Ring ring*

Me: Mayrid..
S: Okay bbm him
Me: I did, myrid..
S: Check his twitter or ask..

Got my laptop, opened it and went on his twitter

Awal ma b6alta I read a convo between him and a girl, "Hadeel".

I looked at the time.. "3mins ago.."

Me: Saraa...
S: Ha shligaitay?
Me: He's having a convo with a girl, should I be worried?
S: Madre, shgallaha?
Me: "You look pretty" b3dain madre shgalat ihya ou gal "lol thanks" b3daain..
S: mn9jich?
Me: Eee.. b3dain galha "dm.."


I can tell Sara was antagonized and very disturbed by what she had heard.


I started to worry, I knew Sara was disconcert.

S: mita the last time you stalked him?
Me: Min awal makalamne, I stoped..

Sara took my laptop.

S: Yeebay lets stalk him
Me: Wait he bbmed me..

*bbm convo*

Me: Hey! Waineck?

PING!!!

A: Shfeech? bldiwaniya u?
Me: Ohh, home.

He seemed to be very calm.

Me: Gali ohwa bildiwaniya..
S: 3ayal laish eflim 3ala rasich?

I didn't know what to say, again.

S: Show off! b6iga ou b6igaa


I looked at Sara. I was tongue tied, for the third time.


S: Whatever, yebay lets stalk.

She looked through his followings

S: 7elw 7elw..
Me: Shnu?
S: Laish you stopped stalking him?
Me: I trust him, ok shligaitay..(?) show me!
S: He's followinggg

She's scrolling down..

S: Hadeel, Alzain, Fay, Alia, Mariam, even a Modhi... akamil?
Me: La2 latkmleen, ymkin they're friends
S: Madre walla, arou7 his ask?
Me: Eee...

On his profile his ask.fm was in his bio, Sara clicked it.

"Bsmilla, please dont dissapoint me 3ziz"

I whispered.

Day 28

Me: I'm sorry
Sara: Don't say you're sorry just promise me bitguleni everything e9eer right after it happens mu months or even years later.
Me: I promise

I thought she would get angry but no, she wasn't. It was as if she knew about it the whole time but kanat sakta.

S: Okay call 3ziz, check if he's okay

3ziz! I forgot about him.

I'm surprised, I wasn't thinking about him.

Me: Khal enru7 my room then I'll call him

Sara: Enzain, I knew about Wahab by the way..
Me: What? How?
Sara: It's a long story

I knew it! I felt it, my feeling are never wrong. 

Me: I have time..
Sara: No you don't

Wisalna my house.

Me: Fine, tell me when we're in my room!

She nodded.

We got out of the car, banzil walla A7mad tawa 6ali3  min elbait.

He looked at me, then quickly looked down as if he was trying to avoid me.

Sara saw him.

Sara: Ouch. Shame on hamoodi.
Me: Mobkaifa!

I quickly got out of the car and yelled his name as he was getting in his car.

" 7moood! "

He instantly looked at me and replied

"Halla Modhi"

With a fake smile on his face. It was too fake to be hidden. Does he really think turning away will make things less awkward? I'm not letting him ruin what's between us. I'm not letting this slip, I'm fixing this.

I ran to his car.

Me: Halla walllaaaaah, shtabe yaay my house?

He smiled and It wasn't fake. Good start.

Me: Ashouf gimna mansalem, gilna 7lu bess mtshouf rou7ick 3alaaay

He smiled again.

Me: Btaskit 6ool el wakt?

I leaned on his car.

Ahmad: Madre shagoulich Modhi
Me: OKH OKH ELGARAG MAYADRE SHIGOULL!!

He smiled for the third time! It's actually working.

Ahmad: Wayhich wayhich!
Me: Eee thats my 7moodi

Finally it's Ahmad, the old one, the one I used to know before he told me he likes me and made things extremely awkward.

Ahmad: Cham mara gailich don't call me that?
Me: Mabe kaifi, 7amoodi
Ahmad: Et7asiseeni gay
Me: Wina shnu?
Ahmad: MODHIOOO

I walked away with a smile.

Ahmad: MODHH WAIT!

I walked back

Me: Halla
Ahmad: Hathi sara?
Me: Eee shadarack?
Ahmad: La walla shey
Me: GOULL!!
Ahmad: 9a7by thabi7ne 3laiha, mayit 3laiha
Me: Ayshey?
Ahmad: Eee walla
Me: Okay mnu hatha?
Ahmad: B3dain agoulich
Me: Okay, bbm me


Ahmad: They should meet
Me: Laaa maku maku!

I walked up to sara then me and sara went to my room.

Me: 7amood's friend mayit 3laich...
S: Mnu hatha?
Me: Madre agoulich when he tells me!
S: Shlon y3arifna asasan?
Me: Stalker!
S: twitter?
Me: Madre, okaay yalla tell me about Wahab.
S: After you tell me what happened between you and "7amood"
Me: Okay