Day 4: Friend or foe?

Taiba told me that she heard stuff.  Apparently he was a so-called player and he talked to more than one girl at once. At least that’s what they say. I never prejudice people before getting to know them properly. Rumors spread everyday, all kinds and I wasn't going to fall for this one But somehow 7az ib 5a6ri hal shay, It hurt when it wasn't supposed to.

This week passed by so fast, it was like a blink of an eye.

Its Thursday today me and Sara Wanted to hang out, i suggested a few places but she preferred to stay home...  Then Sara invited Nora, i wasn't very happy with this but i had to act normal. We went to Sara's house. It was very awkward since Nora was around. I stayed there a few hours then went home.

Nora and I met when we were kids. In grade 9 we fought and stopped talking for 2 years. Until this day I haven't forgiven her for what she had done. 3ashan rfeejati asawe nafse ena nisait ou ena I forgot but I never did and I never will even though I tried. I don't trust anymore.

In Grade 9 I loved this boy, he was everything I can think of. I got bad grades in school because of him. I lied to my parents most of the time because of him. I lost a bunch of weight because of him. I even cried my self to sleep everyday because of him. Everything good and bad that happened to me that year was because of him, it was bitter sweet. It wasn't puppy love.

He was an asshole that had no feelings what so ever. He crushed my heart, totally! .. into tiny pieces and left me there, stranded in the darkest boulevard.

Me and Wahab met when I was in 8th grade. We talked and got so close for a year, then I told him I liked him. He asked me to be his girlfriend, I obviously said yes. Biggest mistake of my life yet I did it anyways because my stupid heart controlled every inch of me. I regret every second of thinking about him.

Nora and Wahab met each other and got close without me knowing, They used to Skype, talk on the phone without me knowing. He used to go out with her and she used to embarrass me by telling him all my secrets.

5 months of being with him, madly in love, then I find out about this? Nora and him are in  love, he's been cheating on me with my bestfriend.

How is that even possible? Shlon aku  nas chthy 3aysha bildina? SHLONN?? I never talk about what happened, my friends never knew what happened because they didn't know about Wahab in the first place, they never knew what he did to me because I was ashamed of admitting it. Kharaftlihum salfa why i was upset ou mishat, they went with it.

Took me 3years to forget.