Day 19: 3 years of meaningless hate!

Skarta ib wayha. How dare he.

W: Modhi riday 3lai.
Me: Stop calling me, mani rada 3laick Wahab

My eyes started tearing. I'm stronger than this, I looked in the mirror, sniffed it in and swallowed my tears.

W: Please just hear what I have to say, You don't even have to reply please Modhi! 3ashani...

*Ring*

He's calling again.

I picked it.

Me: Na3am Wahab.
Wahab: Tadreen how much I miss you saying that?
Me: Saying what?
Wahab: My name, can you say it again please?

Why does he always make me feel like this! He makes me feel guilty, weak, he always makes me feel like I was wrong and makes me want to talk to him. At times it gets so hard for me to say no to him but not this time, It's not working this time.

I'm stronger than this.

Me: Just tell me what you have to say, Lana I have to go
W: Wain bitru7een?
Me: Malick shghel, Wahab bitgoul walla asida?

I felt great saying that, for the first time I felt incharge.

W: Ok Modhi shfeech.. elsalfa 9arat 2 years ago, let it go..
Me: Bye Wahab
W: No wait
Me: Na3am
W: Ok sim3ay ana ams shiftich, bagoulich el9ij wayed mitghayra! I felt like I was missing a lot, you made me think all night. You're beautiful Modhi.
Me: Ok, khalast? Can I go?
W: No. 3an el salfa, tara Modhi Nora stopped talking to me right after we broke up.
Me: Ok great, that's all you have to say?
W: No, 5aleeni akamil please. Madre mnu gayilich we went out, Tara we never did ou to be honest ana I met you min Nora we used to talk gabil la akalmich aw a3arfich! Waktha I was with her, we were together as a couple. Kint em3a9ib 3laiha fa ba7irha in anyway so I talked to you, gilt ena bi7irha. When you and I got close she found out that I talk to you. Gabil la you and I get together I broke up with her.
Me: Oh my god. How the fuck do you have the guts to tell me all this? ENTA SHNU MIN ENSAN? MT7IS WAHAB MAT7IS?
W: Modhi..

I didn't let him finish what he had to say, I hung up.

I had to talk to Nora.

I called Sara and Taiba both don't answer.

*Bbm convo*

Me: Rawna8, 3a6eeni Nora's number quick!
R: Elnas islmoun awal yal ga63a..
Me: Salam 3laikum, can I have her number?
R: Can I have yo numberr? Cannn I? 
Me: Mu waktich Rawna8 please it's important...
R: Btw 7ail z3lana 3laich, 7adich ga63a
Me: I promise I'll make it up to you bacher
R: Bityeen the carnival?
Me: Yup, and I'm all yours
R: Can't wait babyyy! wait khal a6ali3lich her number..

She gave me Nora's number ou I called her 3ala 6ool.

She picked up..

Me: Hi
Nora: Mnu?
Me: Modhi...
Nora: Emm?
Me: Adre, you're probably wondering why I'm calling.
Nora: Aaaa...
Me: Nora why didn't you tell me?
Nora: Tell you what?
Me: You know exactly what..
Nora: I couldn't
Me: Y3ny kill hal wakt I thought you were wrong and I hated you for something you didn't do?
Nora: I didn't want to hurt you, you loved him.
Me: NORA YOU LOVED HIM TOO!
Nora: Hmm, mnu galich?
Me: Ohwa!
Nora: Can we please put this behind us? Elsalfa 9arat 3 years ago ou walla Modh mabe shey ana, bess I miss you, I miss the old us! I miss telling you things..

I couldn't help my self I was crying.