Day 26

Me: I'm sorry 3ziz
A: Bess b3arif laish magilteeli Modhi?

He was still holding my hands.

Me: I'm not proud of it.
A: Shlon kintay et3arfeena?
Me: Mmm I was in love with him.
A: Hatha mita el7ache?
Me: 3 years ago..

Ana awal magiltla 3 years, he let go off my hands. Ana shnu gilt? What does he know about this?

A: Modhi bas2ilich so2al
Me: Ask
A: Modhi entay and your bestfrined both talked to him?

Shdara? Im so confused.

Me: 3ziz mnu galick?
A: Modhi I'm so sorry I have to go

He stood up kan emnazel rasa. He was very dissapointed, I can tell.

He wanted to leave, but I didn't let him. I was in his way.

Me: 3ziz mara7 akhaleeck etrou7
A: Modhi magdar akalmich

He insisted on leaving, I didn't let him go. I don't know if thats his way of showing anger or that he's simply too dissapointed.

The furthest me and Wahab went was tell each other that we loved each other. We never went out, I always said no to him.

Me: 3ziz shnu sami3 bitgouli al7een.
A: Modhi please move, mabe I push you

I held his hands

Me: 3ziz look at me, just listen to what I have to say, okay?

He looked at me, sat down and didn't say a word. I'm guessing this was his way of accepting to hear what I had to say.

I told him how it all went, I told him about Nora and what exactly happened. I told him everything, with no lies what so ever. I came clean.

After 10 mins of detailed explanation I was done telling him.

I sat down next to him.

A: Modhi promise me ena ely giltee exactly what happened, nothing less ou nothing more?
Me: I promise 3ziz, walla.
A: I'm sorry 3a9abit 3laich, lazem arou7 al7een
Me: Why 3ziz shfeeck? Please latrou7
A: Wala shey, mu minich walla
Me: ha 3ayal shfeeck?
A: Abe arou7 awagif wahab 3end 7ada 3ashan maykharbi6 zyada
Me: Shlon?
A: Broo7 acha3ma
Me: La walla mabe mashakel 3ziz
A: Modhi lail7een hal chalb ga3ed ytkalam 3an elsalfa ou la ba3ad azeedich min elshi3er bait, gayel emsawe ashya2 wiyach

How sick is he? Jad madre mita ib ykbar wiseer rayal.

Me: Shnu gayel ba3ad?
A: Mala da3e agoul.
Me: Okay, promise me mara7 emid edick
A: Modhi madre shbi9er walla

He stood up, held my hands and pulled me up.

A: Mabe a6awil 3laich ana, rou7ay 7ag rfejatich okay? Don't worry about me

I didn't say a word. I stood up and he walked me to the door.

A: Ana bamshe tabeen shey?
Me: Salamtick
A: Alla yslmich, Modhi 3ashani deeray balich 3ala rou7ich
Me: Enshalla, enta ba3ad
A: A7ibich wayed walla
Me: Ana ba3ad

He left and I went to the girls.


Awal wisalt I opened the door, they were all sitting in a circle ou awal madkhalt all turned around and looked at me


Sara's eyes were red, she was crying.