Day 20: Happy tears?

Nora: Are you crying Modhi?
Me: Noo...
Nora: You are, please don't cry..
Me: Nora sh3endich elyom?
Nora: Walla shey
Me: Can you come over, please don't say no lazem akalmich!
Nora: Enshalla, as2al omi ou I'll bbm you ok?

She hung up.

As soon as she hung up 3ziz called me.

A: Halla blzain
Me: Hey there
A: Shlonech?
Me: blue enta? Get it? Shnu-lonich? HAHAH.
A: Shnu avatar?
Me: Omg thats even lamer than my joke...
A: Shinsawe ba3ad, 6al3een 3laich
Me: EXCUSE ME?
A: I'm jokinnnnggg
Me: 3abali ba3ad.

He always makes me happy. I'm always smiling none stop when I'm talking to him.

A: Ok Modhi I called you bas2ilich so2al
Me: Etfathal...
A: Modhi if I asked you to be my girlfriend what would you say?

Whoa, what's going on. Is he seriously asking me that? 

I quickly replied to him, with an indirect no.

Me: Don't you think it's too early 3ziz?
A: So that's a no?
Me: Ana magilt no, I'm just saying
A: Okay then
Me: Laish were you planning to?
A: Eee
Me: Too early for an april fools joke, don't you think?
A: I'm not joking. Modhi a7ibich and I want you to be mine and only mine. Im falling in love, I can't control it.
Me: Hmmm

I wasn't sure if I was happy or sad, it was like a load of senselessness emotions that I had to carry behind my back. This made me upset somehow. It made me think of som3ity and what would my parents think if they found out about 3aziz and how it's getting more serious by the day, yet with all that going on a part of be wanted to be with him only because I loved him too much.

I tried to stay out of trouble but trouble always seems to eventually get to me. My heart always directs me to the wrong directions, it's like a false compass that's meant to break you.

*PING* *PING* *PING*

Me: Wait la7tha someone's pinging me I'll see who it is and call you back

Saved by the pings.

A: Ok 7bebti.

7BEBTI?!?!?!?! This was clearly going over the top, it was too much.

*PING* *PING*

OUF rfeejati laish chthy 7ana?!!

*Bbm convo*

Me: SHTABEEN 6AIBOO NA3AM NA3AM? ELWA7ED BIFAKIR MA YIGDAR!
T: Etfakreen ib shnu?
Me: Feech
T: Mu chthy echthboun! Enzain shgayla 7ag Nora?
Me: Laish galatlich?
T: Walla shey I called her bas2alha 3an homeworks walla etsheela ou she wasn't talking 3adel walla staw3ib ena she crying.. giltlaha shfeech mu rathya etgouli
Me: MINSIJICH?
T: I asked her sh3endich elyom galetli bitrou7 baitich, shsayer? Modhi we all know you two hate each other
Me: Agoulich b3dain, I have to go!