Day 24: Break even

"La2 mnu?" I bragged

"Afa Modhi tawne emkalmich!" He replied

" Madre mnu? " Rdait

"Ana Wahab..."

I walked away from the girls 3ashan agdar atkalam 3adel.

Me: Mu china giltlick latdig 3lai walla etkalimne?
W: Adre, bess bas2ilich so2al
Me: Na3am?
W: Shlon et3arfeen 3ziz?
Me: Ay 3ziz?
W: Modhi latistahbilain
Me: WAHAB ETKALAM 3ADEL OKAY?

I got really angry, how disrespectful of him. Okay y3ny I might have known ay 3ziz he's talking about but "latistahbilain" 8awiya. E7asisne em6ay7een elmyana.

W: Asif makan '3azde, okay riday 3lai et3arfeena walla la2?

I couldn't concentrate, I think I over heard 3ziz while Wahab was talking! Or is it just me, hallucination? ah, confusion.

While Wahab was talking I was making sure if it's 3ziz or not. ..seconds later I was sure, a3arif 6reeghat kalama!

Waktha I felt dizzy, Wahab and 3ziz at the same time? The only thing I can think of right now is that what if 3ziz finds out about my ugly past? Ba6ee7 min 3aina.

A7ib 3ziz mabe yakheth 3ani fikra, specially because he always talks about how girls don't think before they act and that they're "khirfan" at times.

At this moment I was in another world you can say, I couldn't hear a thing Wahab said, everything he said was pointless and made no sense at all to me.

W: Modhi? Modhi wain ri7tay?

He interrupted me.

Me: Na3am?
W: Riday 3lai..
Me: Wahab malick shigel enta, latitdakhal ib ashya2 matkhisick

Cha3amta.

I saw my friends coming towards me so I quickly tried to end Wahab's conversation.

After I said what I had to say, he didn't say a word.

Me: Ana bamshe al7een et2amer 3ala shey?
W: Modhi?
Me: Na3am..
W: Awal mara itkalmeeni chthy..
Me: People change Wahab, so should you.. ou 7arakatick elbaykha, ely malat yahal lazem etgawif.
W: Mu min9ijich Modhi
Me: la walla min9iji

They got too close, I walked away so that I can have a longer conversation with him. Wahab deserves to be talked rudely to, Wahab mu insan.

W: Ay 7arakat Modhi?
Me: Wahab etyeeli faj2a ba3ad 3 years etgouli a7ibich? Ettha7ick tara...
W: Machathabt
Me: Alla yastir 3laick bess, yalla ana bamshe ma3a elsalama..
W: Wait, Modhi adre et3arfeen 3ziz latchathbeen just tell me the truth!
Me: Bye Wahab


I hung up. I felt brave, I felt like all this came from deep inside of me. I meant every word I said to him. I didn't even have to think about what to say.


At this point, my feelings towards him were pure hate. I hate him.

I know hate is a strong word but I mean it, the things he made me go though mu shwayya. 

It's 3pm and the carnival was closing, we had to leave.

I went back to my friends. They were all staring, minb3eed.

Sara: Shsar?
Me: Walla shey..
Taiba: Latchathbeen, yalla spill
Me: I don't want to talk about it
Taiba: Mu kaifich goulay..
Nora: Khalas 7aram she doesn't wanna talk about it.

7sait ena Nora 7asa feeni, finally someone understands. When I say I don't want to talk about it, I really don't.

Taiba: Way Nora shtabeen I was asking her..

Nora didn't seem very happy about the way Taiba talked to her. It was very rude, I have to admit.

Me: 6aib sij mabe I talk about it, thank you for caring.
Rawna8: 7bebti akeed you don't wan't to talk about it?
Me: Eee walla, thank you

We left right after that, ri7na all of us bait Rawna8.