Day 22: Such are relief

Me: La2...
A: Eee..
R: Eee?
A: La2 y3ny ee la2 we don't talk..
R: Okay madre etha shayfeeni 7mara walla shnu..

We both said nothing at all, we can't deny anything anymore! It was too obvious.

R: Btitkalimoun walla shlon? Tara this is kinda cute, I always thought you two bitlougoun 3ala ba3ath..
Me: Soo entay mum3a9ba?
R: Haw laish a3a9ib? Do you two talk to each other?
Me: La2..

I denied everything, I never excepted the truth. I denied that we talked so now, I not only sounded stupid but also a liar, great.

R: MASHI MOUDHIO YAL CHALBA CHATHBAY 3LAI AKTHAR!
A: Rawna8 we talk...

I looked at him, shocked at how he just said it to her face.

R: Adre, I just wanted you two to say it!
Me: Shlon tadreen?
R: Adre minziman a9lan!
A: Shlon tadreen?
R: I've got my ways! Ou b3dain Modh adre you had a thing for him minziman
Me: HEYYYYWW!!!
A: Kamlayy.. b3ad shnu Modhi sawat?
Me: WALLA SHEY! Yalla let's go Rawna8 people are staring...

I smiled, I wasn't serious. I kinda wanted someone to tell him that. I've stalked him for so long. This is exactly what I wanted him to hear yet I didn't want to sound like I wanted him to know.

A: Okay before you leave..
R: Shtabe cousin?
A: Modhi answer my question, now that rawna8 knows we talk..
R: La7th wait before you ask, do you two love each other walla friends?
Me: Friends..

Denial again. I just can't tell the truth, It's not something I'm proud of...

A: A7777!! Nvm
Me: Shfeeck?
A: La walla shey...
Me: Shnu kint bis2alne?
A: Walla shey..

I dont understand, what did I say wrong? He obviously knows we aren't only friends..

R: TALK ABOUT GETTING FRIENDZONED!!
A: Exactly...
Me: I didn't mean it, you know we're not friends
A: Bestfriends?
R: Okay listen you two, I'm gona walk away la2na this is getting awkward for me.. Modh ana hnak na6ritich kay babes?
Me: La stay I'm coming ma3ach right after he asks me, and no not bestfriends.. nowhere near friends sadigne 3ziz

Rawna8 smiles, as if she wanted this to happen! I had a feeling that she knew about us long ago. I was very shocked, I didn't expect this to be her reaction at all. Killa can 7sbali ena Rawna8 is close minded that she'd get angry if she found out, but I guess that's not the deal here.

R: Yalla 3ziz khalisne ask her, you can do it..
Me: La7tha wait, you know about this?

I cought 3ziz giving Rawna8 "The look"

Me: I saw that...

3ziz smiles and looks at me with a very innocent look which to be honest was the cutest thing ever. I can't figure out if it was only me thinking he's cute or was it just the effect of love?

R: Don't do that, It's such a turn off.
A: Do what?
R: The smile..

No, It's definitely just me. It's like a package, when you love every flaw becomes a perfection. Every fault becomes a virtue. 

Me: Bil3aks it's cute..
R: Modhhhhiiii oh ohhhh!!

I blushed and looked down...

R: Enzain yalla 3ziz ask..
Me: No wait, Y3ny you know about us?
R: Yup, we just faked that! HAHA! Y3ny 7bebti he's my cousin akeed bigouli!!
Me: La walla 3ziz? Who have you told ba3ad?
A: Ma7ad bess ihya walla...
Me: So giltaha..(?)
A: Eee..
Me:  Wayed saree7, Ashwa giltlaha! Now I don't have to..
R: I'm pissed at you, laish magilteeli..
Me: I thought you'd get angry etha giltlich, sorry
R: 3ade, enzain back to the question! 3ziz ask khalisne..

This is such a relief, now I don't have to feel bad about what I'm doing everytime I'm with Rawna8.

A: Modhi look at me awal..

I looked downwards.

R: He's up here honey..
Me: I can't look people will stare!
R: Y3ny yat 3alla al7eeen? Yalla look 5al9eeni

I looked at him, straight into his eyes! I got a million butterflies only by only looking at him, This is crazy. I'm in love with him!

A: Modhi please, latrideeni.. Will you be my girlfriend?

Shoot me, Now what? What about my reputation? That talk again, Elkuwait sgeera and people talk. Sooner or later someone will find out and will surely judge me, and that's certain.